Anyways, this trip is definitely an unforgettable one, not as expected kind of unforgettable, but still it is. There were of course many fun moments with friends. Occasionally, people might regard me as the party pooper for being unwell and appeared so sick. Sorry for that, I didn't wish to!

It was FULL of ups and downs, so much that I couldn't take it sometimes and had no choice but to break down totally. First few days were fine. Only until PMS caused mood swings, too much thoughts running through my mind and things seemed to turn out bad between people on top of the unwell in my stomach, the only way to face problems was tears. I felt simply helpless at times and started to get homesick. Well, you can say how weak I was. I didn't expect myself to be so weak too and it made me really angry with myself! I didn't want to be the the center of attraction that caused trouble for Dr Chatt and held back everyone's time. Although no one will know about this, I still want to say:

I AM REALLY SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE CAUSED TO EVERYONE AND I TRULY APPRECIATE EVERY WORD OF CARE AND CONCERN FROM DCFC, REALLY.

And I'm so glad I'm back to my comfort zone, where I can rely on parents and boyfriend without fear. They are my pillar of support :) It is just so heart warming to know my dirty laundry are all washed and dried when I woke up in the afternoon. <3 I also feel super loved when I can just rant and grumble to him about my pain, unhappiness and everything will be nicely done for me after that, leaving me with no worries. <3

Friendship, something I treasure just as much as kinship and relationship. Through this trip, it's disappointing to realise how vulnerable and weak it can be. Maybe my thoughts went way too negative. Maybe it isn't as bad afterall to realise some things only now. Maybe maybe...