I am feeling a bit down. I wanted to express my unhappiness in my blog, yet didn't wish anyone else except the people I wanted to tell, to know about it. I wanted to use my special language, yet afraid that others might be able to figure out, or even have the chance to learn the special language I have with my friends.
It confuses me. It makes me feel funny. It makes me realise I am the fault. It makes me feel like I am the blocking obstacle. It makes me feel like a piece of selfish shit. Why is it bothering me so much? I'm a loser, ain't I? Am I really so wrong to do all those shit?