Indecisive. Fickle-minded. Double-minded. That's me. I can't make up my mind on a lot of things. Which poly to go, which course to take, which job to work, which clothes to buy, which necessity to get, which to choose, whether I should buy. Almost everything that needs me to make a decision, I just freak out for at least a moment. Oftenly, I make people around me getting either irritated or in difficult position. I'm truly sorry. But I can't help it.
I even put the blame on my mum a few days ago when my parents and I were discussing this weakness of mine. I accused my mum that she must be thinking a lot whether she should give birth to me. That's why I turn out to be as tentative. But she said no. And my dad agreed with her. Then she told me I actually had an elder sister, just a year elder than me. But she aborted her that time. How sad! I wish I had that sister. I am sure we would be very very close. I am sure she would be sharing my feelings and thoughts. But I am also sure there would be another person in the family to argue with me as well. Why the hell I think so much? She doesn't exist afterall.
Back to topic, why am I so indecisive all the time? I asked qy is it because we see each other too much that we grow to be like each other in terms of personality. Because I realise we are quite alike in some ways. Like, being so blur, so stupid(are we?), having the same taste on particular things, love singing, being the kids lover and also the cats' victims.
We saw that OP bag 2 days ago. Both of us pondered whether we should buy. In the end, we decided to go home and think about it. Two days later, which is today, we went to Lot 1 again, but we still struggled over the same thing.
We went Lot 1 today to actually have a chat. I was confused by her on the person she mentioned in her blog a few days ago and I finally cleared my mind. We were holding a cup of bubble tea in our hands, idling at Lot 1. After finishing the drink, we went into the library. I borrowed a book. Isn't that a miracle?! I am going to read a book! It's about teens. We also chatted about relationships and stuff.
She passed me an empty box. Yea! I finally can put all those stuff related to zy in a box. It's 9, I want to catch my show! bYe!
